Big Smile

SMILE

This picture was taken by "Uncle" Joel on the same day the sleeping pumkin picture was taken. It is the best smile documented to date. The smiles make it all worth it.

Grin and Bear it

Feeling Better

Thanks to those who read my last entry and called or wrote. I am using all suggestions and I cant tell you how much it helps to vent my feelings. I have not been feeling sick to my stomach for the last few ays and am much less weepy. Cayenne slept in her swing for a half hour today and then slept for two and a half hours in bed with me nursing from time to time. I actually got to take a nap and cuddle with Yung a little! She seems to be tolerating the carseat more and crying less so things are feeling easier for now.

thoughts & feelings

Cayenne will be two months old in two days. She smiles and talks often. She has been nursing without any tools for three weeks now. Yung and I just taught her to use pacifier to help get us through her fussy evenings and car rides. My theoretical objection to pacifiers and other things that make parenting easier are rapidly melting away. I am experiencing some serious pospartum anxiety and sadness and thinking about going to the doctor to get some help. I Keep reminding myself that this hard part of raising Cayenne wont last forever. She will get more independent and I will get better too.