thoughts & feelings

Cayenne will be two months old in two days. She smiles and talks often. She has been nursing without any tools for three weeks now. Yung and I just taught her to use pacifier to help get us through her fussy evenings and car rides. My theoretical objection to pacifiers and other things that make parenting easier are rapidly melting away. I am experiencing some serious pospartum anxiety and sadness and thinking about going to the doctor to get some help. I Keep reminding myself that this hard part of raising Cayenne wont last forever. She will get more independent and I will get better too.